A friend had noticed from my facebook statuses (what is the plural of status?) that I was getting a bit stressed, that I was feeling the toll of being a Mummy 24 hours a day 7 days a week and that having moved so recently I didn't know who to turn to in order to get a break. She didn't know me that well but she is a registered child minder and thought she would offer to take my wee one for 3 hours. I jumped at the chance.
I thought it would be good for Naomi to learn that sometimes Mummy will go away but that she will always come back. I knew it would be good for me to be able to sit down without watching Naomi or at the very least listening anxiously to the baby monitor as I try and shove another load of washing in the washing machine!
Well, this morning was my child free morning. I was so excited, I needed it so much, I had a pile of sewing to do (a source of pleasure to me, not a stress) and I had a cup of tea with my name on it! The thing is, though, this left me feeling somewhat guilty, about wanting time away from my wee one. Was it right I needed some space that was all about me?
Yes! I have only been away from Naomi a handful of times since she was born and most of those after bed-time. I have been with her almost constantly for 5 months, you spend every waking moment with anyone for 5 months (they get to dictate what those waking hours are, too) and tell me you don't want some space from them. My husband and I have never spent that long with no time apart and I love him unconditionally, why should my daughter be any different?
In the end, I feel great for be able to "forget" about being a Mum for a bit, and Naomi had an absolute blast playing with new toys and people. Will I do it again? Absolutely! Will I feel guilty? Probably, but I'll get over it!